For believe me: the secret for harvesting from existence the greatest fruitfulness and greatest enjoyment is - to live dangerously.
Friedrich Nietzsche, The Gay Science, section 283
German philosopher (1844 - 1900)

Heads snapping and misspelling eyes twitching in response to the sound of the words. Red world-like words zooming boiling. Moons in the shallow sky. Roaring with whispers to the tiny bunnies SPLAT/SQUISH those fucking bunnies.

I wish I was pyramid head.

Good day.
Went on an adventure.
Not much else to say really....



Because no one reads this shit.

New Hat. Self explanitory.

good day. <3 Hopefully another amazing day tomorrow. PS, Brianna makes my heart skip sortof. Buttttt she's into someone else. @___@ eeep.

I don't like LJ.
I prefer blogger.
easier to get my thoughts out there, than here.
But whatever... If I just stop posting here, don't be offended.



I finished a really good book today, Poison. I don't really feel like giving a summary, considering I just typed a three page report on it. >< But anyway, I suggest you go out and read it. Especially if you like gothic-fantasy-thriller-esque books. It's a really good 'teen' fantasy novel, but In my opinion, it rivals most adult novels. Don't get me wrong, it's not a Dean Koontz, or a Stephen King. But it's REALLY good.

After reading it, I began thinking and asking myself questions based on the books overall theme. The book metaphorically explains teenage life, but in a more fantasy way as the book's Heroine, Poison, travels from one realm to another to retrieve her stolen sister. It also implies that even with the apparent addition of a storyteller, and that the belief that your destiny is set in stone (which it ironically, is.) that you are your OWN storyteller. It got me thinking a lot, wondering what my own path is, and put me in somewhat of a cynical mood. I've been getting in these moods a lot lately, as I've been confused about what to do with myself now that I'm officially 'ON THE MARKET'. It's one thing to get your heart ripped out... stepped on and crushed. But then, I knew my role in the story.

Now, I feel like I have no place...
And even though the hand that guided me before was a slutty one....
It feels odd without one at all.

It rained today.
But there's always something beautiful after a rainstorm.

ThiZz Iz h0w d4 beAT dr0ppzzzzzzzzzzz

The last few days have been kinda blurry.
I guess you could say it's because of the meds, but whatever.
I had an okay weekend, considering I didn't get to see some people who I wanted to see.
But I can't complain.

Feel like shit today though.
I didn't even go to school. I just turned on the TV and fell asleep on my couch.
I woke up about 12... Sat here on the computer until now. I haven't really thought about anything much though, which is a pleasant surprise considering I'm always thinking about something. Took new pictures last night, meh. Nothing spectacular.

Nothing interesting ever happens here...
Ever.

I don't know what's happening to me.
Every day, I feel deader... More weak.
I nap a lot more. I'm more distant. My music tastes are fucked up.
I really wish I could just....



No, that would be wrong.
But I can admit that I'm finally over her.
And I'm ready to move on.



But now that I'm alone...
What do I do?
I feel so lost... But she can't know that.
No. I can't give her the satisfaction.
She plays people. She played me... I've been under her spell far too long.
I'm ready to move on and accept this...


..But there's no one to hold my hand this time.

Okay day..
Hung out with some people I haven't hung out with in awhile.
I think I can finally say I'm over her.












But what is there for me now...?

It's Friday.
I want to hang out with someone cool tonight.
Or at least hang out with someone cool this weekend.

YAY! The huge torrent I was downloading last night, finished.
=] Sweet. Now I have a few gigs of really good industrial // electronica.

Bass Infektion
December 2005
Mixed by: DJ TEKFOX

01	J Majik & Wickaman - Ska Disco
02	Hivek - Last Call
03	Unknown Artist - Pump Friction
04	Keaton & Hive - Bring It On
05	Mampi Swift - Tripped (Gridlok Remix)
06	Tk - Inspector Gadget
07	Capone - Just Relax
08	Mampi Swift - Play Me (VIP)
09	Cartel/span> - Montana's War
10	Gridlok Feat Ryme Tyme - Don't Hold Back
11	Final Reckoning - Nothing Less
12	Tango & Ratty - Cold Rock Stuff (Baron Mix)
13	Pendulum - No One Knows (Unreleased)
14	Subfocus - Juno
15	Spor - Ultimate Technology
16	Muffer - The Iron Tune
17	Baron - Faster Than Light
18	Unicron - Orions Five
19	Keaton & Gridlok - Move On
20	Styles of Beyond - Subculture
21	Chris SU - Blasta
22	Moving Fusion & Fierce - Now's The Time
23	Baron Feat Pendulum - Guns At Dawn
24	Subfocus & Danny Wheeler - Lost Highway
25	Subfocus - Frozen Solid
26	Dom & Gridlok - Hooked
27	Ed Rush & Optical - Reece
28	Drumsound & Bassline Smith - Tyrant (Nightwalker Remix)
29	Tech Itch - Soliders (D-Bridge VIP)
30	Gridlok - Vampire (VIP)
31	Raiden - Arch Angel
32	Konflict - Messiah (Noisia Remix)
33	Echo - Out Of Time
34	Hive - Neo (Dom & Roland Remix)
35	Black Sun Empire - Driving Insane
36	Kaos, Karl K & Jae Kennedy - Soul On Fire
37	Calyx - Tearing Us Apart
38	Hive - Paradrenasite
39	Concord Dawn & Ill.Skillz - Unreal
40	Chris SU & Raw Full - Panorama

Hot damn. <3

Studying at my own insecurities;
Ripping apart MY own mind.
Studying MY own mistakes; flaws; and failures.
Beating MYSELF down. Spiraling in MY sea of shit.





It's not as fun when you're alone.

I'm not quite sure why I'm here...
Considering I already have a stable blogger. [Perhaps it's the lack of comments thereof.]
But I'm here... So feel free to drop by and do what you want.


A lot of these layouts are stupid, so expect a custom one down the road.
There's too much on plate at the moment to actually code on from scrap though.
But whatever... it'll get done.

I guess it's time for the introduction, so I'll just start by saying that I'm [Binx.]
Tak if you know me personally. I have a lot of names really, but Tak is the most common.
I'm 17, and I live in a small town in upstate South Carolina. I'm an aspiring graphic artist, former insomniac, music and technology junkie, coding apprentice, mental kid with really nothing going for him but his art. Even then it's scarce. I gave up my true shell for a plain hollow existance... and I'm learning things as I go along. I'm quiet by nature, but when I open up, I can be really open. I'm quite confusing, and the things I do don't always make sense. I love talking about life, love and philosophy, so if you want to talk, feel free to add me, IM me, or whatever.




Now that that's taken care of..



My day was pretty average.
It's all you can expect from a shithole like this place.
I've been really monotone and out of lately... Kind of down and really tired.
I guess i've had a lot on my mind. Hopefully soon lots of things will get straightened out or something.


I've been listening to a lot of calmer, deeper music. More so that my Drum N Bass. O.O
It's nuts. I've gotten into bands like 30 Seconds to Mars, A Perfect Circle (again.), and stuff like that.
It's really good thinking music. =]] It makes sorting through my thoughts a hell of a lot easier. <3


Man... I'm wrecked.
And I have three tests tomorrow. @___@
At least I know I'll pass the Scarlet Letter test. :]
And my US History test. WEWTZ0RZ LOLZ